All these deep posts as of late - searching my soul, spending time in my desert, scratching the surface of the uncomfortable zones, changing belief systems - they're taking their toll.
I'm worn out, worn down, my wheels are constantly turning, spinning.
I told Sarah at dinner last night that it's all very exhausting. She agreed, and I think her theme words of "Light and Strong" are good guides. I've become myred in over-analysis and digging, digging, digging.
I've forgotten, in the short term, how to lighten up, laugh and enjoy the moment for what it is.
Have you ever noticed how just about anything comes together so much easier when you're genuinely light-hearted, open and care-free?
I had a friend at one time, who was my first basement tennant. His outlook on life was very negative. He would come home grumpy and bitchy every single day. He could tell you just what was wrong with EVERYTHING! Not a positive influence, not a person you find yourself wanting to be around! He couldn't understand how my life was going so well. As he saw it, I had everything handed to me. I had the job I wanted, the house I wanted, the friends I wanted. His life was not what he wanted and I could tell why. He continued to get more and more of what he spent so much of his time focusing on: misery.
True, getting what you want out of life is often a whole lot of work. I believe in my soul, though, that the work seems a whole lot less like "work" when you take a lighter approach to problem solving. Invite people in - it's been my experience that people will treat you as you treat them. Treat everyone with respect, dignity and neighbourly invitation. You'll be amazed at how positively they'll respond to you!
Today the "have to do"s are "get to do"s.
As Mollie has shared with me, and I agree:
"...so enjoying life, each day, is the main thing. and giving thanks for whatever comes... "