I have this friend, G. Well, G. is not really a friend, more like an acquaintance: a long-time, deeply-rooted-in-my-life pain in the ass to be quite honest.
Have you ever had one of those "friends" who, on the surface embraces you, supports you and makes you feel like they have your "best interest" at heart? They're comforting and reassure you consistently. In the balance, however, they're deceitful. They take from you. They take from you your pride and your sense of well-being. When they've finished laying their influence on you you're left wondering: "Just what kind of friend are you, anyway!?"
This is my friend G.
For years G. and I have had a close, very bonded relationship. In very recent weeks, however, I've come to fully understand G.'s influence and intentions. Events over the last 48 hours have convinced me that G. has to go. For far too long G. has had a negative influence on all of my friends and family - practically everyone I know.
There's part of me that will miss G., but I anticipate not for long. It's extremely difficult - near impossible, it seems - to bring myself to say goodbye.
I know what the reaction will be.
G. will be friendly and warm. G. will reassure me that there is no need to move on. G. is most certainly going to point out the benefits of remaining friends. I'll no doubt hear about how many times G. has "stepped up to the plate" for me.
I'm a bit fearful of the pending struggle. I'm about to break a bond with a friend. Although I have never experienced this directly, I expect it will be much like a divorce - only with no legal implications.
So, as I head into the final stretch - psyching myself up to do the deed, I'm feeling a whole mix of emotions, many of them conflicting. I'm the first guy to give anyone the benefit of the doubt, a second chance as it were.